Ten Days to Serenity

November 15, 2018

Ten days ago, I decided I’d had enough of our dirty, messy house.

We rearranged two rooms. We rearranged wall hangings. For ten days, I took room by room and decluttered. I dusted. I vacuumed. I swept. I’ve kept dishes and laundry going.

Ten days ago, I was depressed. Ten days ago, I decided to do something about it.

I don’t know how to describe the mental headspace having our whole house clean and neat and straight has given me. Serenity is the closest thing I can come to a description. I feel like I can face the world. I am no longer depressed. I feel a sense of pride in my living space and belongings. I feel a sense of pride in myself.

Dining Room
I am under no illusions. I understand habits have to change. I understand that in order to maintain my serenity, I will have to work daily. I am ready to commit to that change. I’ve already kept the sweeping up for a week and a half, almost, daily. I feel ready for this change.

It is almost intoxicating, the balance this clean space brings to my brain. I am thrilled.

Must remember this on harder days.

New Front Door Color!

October 23, 2018

My uncle B is in the process of giving our entry way a makeover. He started with a fresh coat of new paint on our front door. The color is a shade of gray, but it’s called Behr “Intellectual.” I’m so excited. He is also going to paint the trim around the front door.

Old Front Door Color

I didn’t hate the red from before, exactly, but it had faded. And red wasn’t really us. The new is awesome and makes the house look stately, as my mom said.

New Front Door Color

New Front Door Color


Painting the Dining Room Part 1

October 21, 2018

I’ve moved on to painting the dining room.




One Coat

One Coat

The second wall will have to wait until at least Tuesday.

Last of Painting the Kitchen

October 20, 2018

I finished painting the kitchen, finally, last night. I procrastinated and delayed and dreaded that project.

My thyroid has been wonky and I don’t think my levels are quite back to where they should be. I did finish the kitchen, and I had enough energy to do so yesterday. But today, I have felt like sleeping much of the day.

Anyway, more kitchen pics:

Behind the Refrigerator

with one coat– no more green


one coat-- no more green

one coat– no more green


Finished Kitchen

Finished Kitchen

It feels so great to have the kitchen paint done. I’m torn on which project to start next– the dining room or the master bedroom. I should probably do the dining room next but the change will be more dramatic in the master bedroom. We’ll see what happens.

On Finding a Good Chair

September 4, 2018

Most days, I don’t think about it. I just plop down in whatever chair is closest, just sit down and resign myself to whatever level of comfort a chair gives me.

When quietly left to my own devices though, I am extremely picky about sitting spaces. I use one of the cushions provided at church, against the hard pews, even though I know they’re meant for elderly folks, hoping nobody else notices. If I don’t, there’s an uncomfortable gap between my back and the pew.

It’s been this way since I was 13 years old, when the curvature of my back was so bad that my spine was going to crush my heart. As a result, my spine is fused from my shoulder blades all the way down, fused to my hip bones. There is no give, no molding myself to the fit of a chair. I have feeling in the muscles in my back but my back behaves as though it is solid bone, because at this point it is just that. And there is certainly no forgiving chairs that don’t have lumbar support.

Which brings me to the chair in the photo above. It’s new to us, but not new to my family. It originally belonged to my grandmother’s first cousin Minnie, I would guess over a hundred years ago now. Yesterday, it found a spot in our family room.

This chair is Heaven-sent for me. Hands down, it is wonderful. It has become “Mom’s chair,” for sure, for when we are all crowded around the TV. Or like right now, when I am by myself at home and just sitting, with my laptop in my lap. To now, I’ve made do with the recliners in the room, or with a cushion behind me on the couch. This chair needs nothing. It is perfect as it is.

So grateful to my Mama, who gave it to us yesterday. I wanted the chair based on how pretty it is. But it will never leave our house in my lifetime based on how comfortable it is.

Making Our House Our Own

August 11, 2018

I love our house. It’s far more grand than I ever expected to own.

However… the previous owners definitely had different tastes than my own in paint colors. The paint was tasteful but bold. Our kitchen gets a lot of light, but it was painted a shade of medium green. It was beautiful with the previous owner’s decor and it was servicable with our own. However, it wasn’t what I would have chosen myself.

I started the process of painting our kitchen this week. I chose Behr’s “Moth Gray.” I started with the laundry room area:

laundry area

This photo was after one coat of paint.

laundry area 2


one coat on big wall

This is with one coat of new paint

original green

after paint

one coat on everything

one coat on everything

finished wall by fridge

finished side of kitchen

finished side of kitchen

I can’t describe the sense of relief having this job done gives me. Besides the obvious benefits of having the paint color changed and the ongoing satisfaction the change in decor will bring….it has been nearly 10 years since I have successfully completed a painting project. For a while, I got in the habit of starting something and having a very specific timeline in which I felt like I had to finish, which set myself up for failure immediately. With this project, I honestly intended to take a wall by wall a day approach. If the project took three weeks or a month, so be it. And it may still be a month before the other side of the kitchen is finished. I will have to arrange getting the fridge and the stove moved to finish the job.

However, for now, I feel a great sense of accomplishment and relief.

New Starts

August 5, 2018

I’m depressed. I’m trying hard not to be and I know it’s the phase of change– I always get depressed when change happens. With the start of school, we have big change in our lives– in my life and in Oliver’s life. Oliver is having a great time with school. He has asked repeatedly this weekend when he gets to get on the school bus again. So it’s just me that’s depressed.

I need to reinvest in my house but I have been reluctant to do so. Besides loathing the cleaning, I really know I need to do big projects like painting in order to be satisfied with the house and I haven’t been so successful with my more recent attempts at painting. I need badly to succeed at something.

I’ll start simple today. Like washing Oliver’s nap blanket/towel from school (already in the wash), doing dishes, and vacuuming at least the foyer area. And cleaning off both kitchen and dining room tables. That’s a good goal.

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