I’ve had some down time in the past couple of weeks. Laundry has fallen behind, and my household routine has pretty much gone down the drain.
There are a couple of reasons for my downturn. I had my last wedding as Caroline Price Photography, LLC. I closed down the business. There was a big sense of relief in doing so, but I also know that I am left navigating new waters in this new hobby venture and that scares me. Anything that disturbs my equilibrium is likely to send me to depression.
Boys have been home sick– last week it was Oliver with pneumonia, this week it is Liam with strep. I’ve had a cold that started while Oliver was home and physical sickness always affects my ability to regulate my mood. So that’s the other reason I know I have had affecting my depression.
Today is actually feeling better. I drank some water this morning instead of launching immediately into my coffee. I have given my light therapy some extra time to work. I’ve done some stretches and plan to do some stair stepping to get some cardio in.
I’m introspective as usual and have decided to start doing DBT exercises again. I want desperately to be a better mom and wife for my family.
That’s all for today.