Oliver turned five a week ago. This precious baby is no longer a baby. Jared took snickerdoodle and sugar cookies to O’s classroom and we had a family party. Six balloons courtesy of Grandma and Grandpa are still in his room.
I started an antidepressant about three weeks ago. I decided to stop fighting the acknowledgement the fact that I have turned into an utter mess, and try to do something about it. I am still not exercising or eating much better, but I am at least religiously taking my mood stabilizer and my antidepressant.
I did decide to re-open the photography business. I’ve had enough inquiries come in to know that I can do occasional gigs, and I don’t have to throw myself into advertising to build business. I know the volume of work I can handle– not much– but it’s significant enough that it is worth the effort to be legit. So I did it. The 365 Project continues at http://caroline.photography.
March was an eventful month. It may be a turning point for a new phase of life, if I can maintain upward stamina. I woke up before 4 am this morning, which is not good news, but given how much I have been sleeping over the past couple of months one short night of sleep is not the end of the world.
It is spring break, and we are doing daily little things with the boys instead of a big trip. Today is a trip to Cheaha State Park in Alabama. Monday will be a rest day as Jared has to go to work and I really hope I come through and do laundry like I plan to do. Tuesday is Jared and my 14th wedding anniversary, and the boys will spend the night at Grandma and Grandpa’s so we can go on a date. Wednesday is Panola Mountain State Park. Thursday is going to the movies, probably to see Captain Marvel unless they go with Grandma and Grandpa on Tuesday night. Friday is bowling, and Saturday is an all-day board game fest.
It was important to me that we plan out some fun things to do, to look forward to, each day. It was important as a mom for me to give those boys a feeling like they did something with their spring break instead of just feeling stuck at home, but it was also important to my own outlook on the week.